Tired of...

*sigh*
this is so not me
but i'm so darn tired of running these races
so tired
very tired
extremely tired

tired of getting over stuffs.
tired of getting over the past.
*sigh* who ever knew it's this hard?
tired of facing the truth.
tired of expecting.
tired of falling down and picking myself up again.
tired of being disappointed.
tired of hoping.
tired of working.
tired of tolerating.
tired of dealing with jokers (my dad's word for idiot).
tired of searching.
tired of being like this.
tired of being 'strong' = pure nonsense
tired of making things work.
tired of trying to understand.
tired of putting up with these..
tired of adapting.
tired of trying to be true, this so so fake.
tired of thinking,wondering.
tired of being sick.
tired of being stressed out, bearing the tension.
tired of healing the wound.
tired of patching things up.
tired of being a PERFECTionist
tired of so many things.

even a break doesnt feel like a break.
in fact, i think it's breaking, cracking, possibly crashing

1 year, 2 years. perhaps 5 months. who knew such a short time can break things up into pieces?
things change. too drastic.
*sigh* i dont think i even know myself at all now.
guess the optimistic me expired a while ago, and tired of renewing.

when will this end?
when life's over? maybe sooner, maybe later, or maybe never.

the first and (hopefully)the last emotional post. yeah. watever...