2011: a new year a new decade

2011
an old year leaves
a new year comes

it was a challenging year yet i endured it
it was a memorable decade and i'll cherish it
i won't cry because it's over but i will smile instead

2011
a new year
a new decade

i may not know what it has in store for me
i may not know what challenges is ahead of me
but with prayers and good will may God be with me

2011
a new me
a new you

new friends are silver but old friends are gold
new friends we'll find and new memories we'll mold
but the joy and sorrow we shared in my heart i will always hold

2011
time has passed
time will come

twenty-eleven a new year a new decade has come
plenty of laughter or tears we don't know which will come
but with ora et labora may we succeed and God's will be done

Tired of...

*sigh*
this is so not me
but i'm so darn tired of running these races
so tired
very tired
extremely tired

tired of getting over stuffs.
tired of getting over the past.
*sigh* who ever knew it's this hard?
tired of facing the truth.
tired of expecting.
tired of falling down and picking myself up again.
tired of being disappointed.
tired of hoping.
tired of working.
tired of tolerating.
tired of dealing with jokers (my dad's word for idiot).
tired of searching.
tired of being like this.
tired of being 'strong' = pure nonsense
tired of making things work.
tired of trying to understand.
tired of putting up with these..
tired of adapting.
tired of trying to be true, this so so fake.
tired of thinking,wondering.
tired of being sick.
tired of being stressed out, bearing the tension.
tired of healing the wound.
tired of patching things up.
tired of being a PERFECTionist
tired of so many things.

even a break doesnt feel like a break.
in fact, i think it's breaking, cracking, possibly crashing

1 year, 2 years. perhaps 5 months. who knew such a short time can break things up into pieces?
things change. too drastic.
*sigh* i dont think i even know myself at all now.
guess the optimistic me expired a while ago, and tired of renewing.

when will this end?
when life's over? maybe sooner, maybe later, or maybe never.

the first and (hopefully)the last emotional post. yeah. watever...

Matriculation: A Photo Summary Of Semester I

Just to sum it up and say goodbye to semester 1 as a pre-U and matriculation student.

some of the things i did...
first and foremost: STUDYING


stocking up my food supply


Berbuka puasa with my tutorial mates






Celebrating Raya


Going out with friends



Organizing the Malam Akustil KML



Dinner at TomYam Island with my fellow tutorial mates again



Celebrating MoonCake Festival

Unseperatable Michaelians

Joined the Inter-Tutorial choir competition




Visiting the Petronas Methanol Labuan


Attending Extra Night Classes

DOTA in Miss K's night class

Having Lunch and studying together with my roommates, during study week


Sitting and Facing the nightmare: PSPM exam


and last but no least, Sitting for MUET

Delirious with joy after MUET speaking test

Not Forgetting: CamWhore



and fooling around in BT1.2 after Rosary




also, celebrating Rini's Birthday





now that the semester has come to an end, i'm saying goodbye to my old messy table:


so sayonara SEM I, annyong SEM II


but will this be over?

PSPM is over, Holiday gonna be over and MUET still on

it's been ages (2 months i think?) since i last update my blog. well, to be frank, i was lazy; well, not to mention that i was also busy

anyway, PSPM (peperiksaan semester program matrikulasi) was over about 2 weeks ago. to sum it up, PSPM gave us heart attack. maths paper 1 was quite easy, in fact, it's easier that UPS, coz i got a lousy D+. haha

on the contrary, paper 2 was damn hard. i dont even . understand what the question wants me to do. oh well.

chemistry was the killer paper. it started with paper 2, and the killer wave hit us like a tsunami.

even question 1(a) was a killer. it was extreamly simple: balance the equation. but, there was an unknown. let me give you an analogy:

HxO + ____ will produce ________

x can be 2 or 3 right?

but of cause it was not a common equation like h20 or h30..so, i didnt waste my time answering that 1 mark Q. anyway, the whole paper was rather hard. well, if the straight A1 scorers (esp chinese) can go back and collect buckets and buckets of tears, then it must be darn hard for us average students, huh? what i'm trying to say is, the top scorers also find it hard. after going through the hellish paper 2, i think everyone would say paper 1 was easy.

although it's not THAT easy, but still, much much more easier than paper 2.

anyway, if you were in kml ( or any other matriculation colleges, i assume experience the same phenomena) you will see the worst science students mood. everyone was walking moodily, as if the dementors (read harry potter if you dont know what is that) has just suck their life out of them. the dorm was damn quiet, people pulling long and sour faces, sulking and.. well.. to cut it short, it was an ugly sight.

biology was the only paper that was obviously designed by sane people. it was average. not easy not difficult, just average. so, i must say, thank you to whoever they are.

then, after the PSPM is over, I had to face and sit for my MUET (malaysian university english test). i was edgy and nervous for the speaking test. but thank god everything when well. it wasn't THAT bad really. but i dont know how good or how bad i did. i'm just praying for the best.

thanks to the MUET speaking test, i had to stay back in college extra long. thank god all my roommates had to stay back too, so i had company. so after the speaking test, i was delirious with joy and really look forward to coming back to kk. it feels great!

my MUET group members: razmie, adrian lee, fazliana and me

happily taken after the speaking test

so here i am, holidaying. downloading and watching movie and drama till i drop.

and here's the list of movie and drama i watched recently in college and at home:

Korean:

1st Shop of Coffee Prince (drama)

My Girl (drama)

Yoo Hee The Witch (drama)

Daisy (movie)

Doremifasolatido (movie)
Heartbreak Library (movie)

Hello Highschool Girl

Love Phobia (movie)

Someone Special (movie)

Wet Dreams (movie)

SuJu Movie

Japanese:

Hana Yori Dango (drama) -drama berbuka puasa =)

Meichan No Shitsuji (drama) - really sweet

My Boss My Hero (drama) - very funny

1 Liter of Tears (drama) - as the title indicate, very sad. my roommate always had kleenex by her side

Nightmare Detective (movie) - you die in your dream, you die in real life

Detective Conan The Movie - very cute, like the Conan + some romance

Koizora The Movie - very touching, looking forward to watch the drama

English:

Bolt

High School Musical 3- Senior Year

Lemony's Snickets: A Series of Unfortunate Events

Ace Ventura Pet Detective

Monster Vs Aliens

Slumdog Millionare

Bride War

Coraline

Ice Age 3

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (dont like it, altho i'm a HP fan)

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

(the last 3, was a movie marathon with my mum, hehe)

Malay:
TaleNTime

well, holiday is coming to an end. i will be going back to KML on friday, and sit for MUET listening, reading and writing test on saturday. then on monday, it will be the beginning of a new semester in KML.

so SEM II, here i come!!~~

p/s: the water problem ain't that bad anymore. water tank comes to kml everyday, so we dont need to go water hunting. even though only the ground floor have water, we really appreciate that ^^

UPS. H1N1, fever and quarantined. Water problem to be solved

it's been one month since i blog. *sigh* lots of things happened during this one month. so brief update is on the way

1. UPS result is out. it sucks though. >.< i got B for bio and chem, D+ for maths and A for English. my pointer was like 2.4? thanks to my maths. i think chemistry was okay, but was rather disappointed with bio. i didnt expect an A, but i expect higher that B la. as for maths, all i cared was that i passed that subject. did i mentioned before what happened to me during maths paper? well, to cut the long story short, i was zombie-dized on that day. i had severe mental block. i cant even recall what does 'real roots' means. i did partial raction halfway and then i went blank and dont know how to do the next step (i got full mark for similar Q during quiz though) it's not like i dont know what to do, i just cant recall how to do. let me give you an analogy. i'm hungry, so i'm supposed to eat right? so in this situation, i get the food, put it in my mouth. then i got blank. i know im supposed to chew and swallow, but i cant recall how to chew my food. that was how i felt when i did partial fraction. and there was question about squaring both side. so i square, but i didn't bother to square the numbers in the modulus. what i'm trying to say here is that, i was not careless, i knew what mistakes i did without knowing it was all mistakes. meaning to say, i did the mistakes consiously. will anyone tell me what could possibly be the reason for that to happen? but i'm glad that i got an A for english, although it's not taken into consideration in our pointer. more than half my class got E. *sigh*

2. there was at least 3 positive cases of h1n1 in my college, and recently there's a new case in my block, which makes the total cases to be 4. due to these positive cases, the whole college was quarantined, but not closed. so we were all 'prisoned' in the college for like 2 weeks. woah.. that was long you know! and since there's this h1n1 out break, every got sick. its like the whole college is sick. everyone will either experience cough, flu, fever, sore throat, or somekind of sickness. as for me, i had the worst fever experience plus flue and cough. i had fever for 5 days. it started on tuesday, which i ignored. by tuesday night my temperature rose to i think around 40 degree. the next day, though it subsided, i went to the GH. they checked my temperature and it was 39.3. i was showing h1n1 syntoms u know! Thank god i was not quarantined. the doctor acutally prescribed me 2x4 paracetamol a day! my gosh, crazy oh! then i got 4 days MC until saturday. when i first saw it, i was like, wth? 4 days? common man!! by friday i tried to get up and attend class coz my fever subsided but i could only manage 1 hour of class. by noon my head was spinning, very dizzy and i wanted to throw up. so i had to go to the GH again. *Sigh* my parents was so worried that they paid me a visit, although we were quarantined. well, how to get well eh? imagine i was already that dead sick and there i was, water hunting and doing my laundry at 11 pm. (dont tell my mum that, she'll kill me)

3. last but not least, i'll talk about water problem (i have to leave after this, got MUET practice). anyway, yeah.. we didnt have water since sunday 2 weeks ago. so we had to go water hunting and q for hours and hours for water. but lately things have been slightly better. at least the water tank at the ground floor got water, so no need to hunt too far. the good news is that recently, this mr puad sumthing, the timbalan menteri pelajaran, visited our college. and he promised to solve our water problem in one month's time. well, lets just see how true is that. it's left to be seen. well, i have to leave now.

english tutorial and jokes

yo again people. today is a happy day for me. one thing i like about tuesday is because it's the most relaxed day in college. on top of that, my 2 hours of moral class was cancelled, hurray!! so, my tutorial mates and i went and had our early lunch at 11, and before 12 we were already in the library. and yippy! since i brought my laptop to study with me (my lecture note is in my laptop maa), i took the opportunity to try the internet out. and alas! i got online for the first time since i came here. the wifi was seriously not bad, well.. there's nothing much to do online also ma.. so it was not bad. and guess what, i got hooked up online and forgotten about studying.. ahaha.. so much so for carrying the laptop with me in my giant laptop bag around the campus. but i guess it's worth it, coz i got to get online and posted the 2nd june post :)

anyway, i HEARD that there will be somekind of talk about MUET (malaysia university english test) tonight at 8pm. *sigh* i plan to study and suddenly now i have to attend this talk.. why cant they do it on some other days? i have maths quiz tomorrow and biology quiz the next day people, and i'm still far from finishing my revision.. huhuh

anyway.. there are some jokes i came across in the past few weeks that i think is worth sharing

L-lecturer. S- student

scene 1:
L: if you eat papaya continuously for 2 weeks, your boobs will become bigger ( or did she say breast? nevermind.. just get the idea)
S1: does that work on guys too?
SS :*laughs*
S2: boys eat banana!!
SS: *laughs louder* (i bet someone was tempted to get underneath the tabble and chairs)

Scene 2:
L: okay take 5
SS: yay, take 5!!
L: okay, those of you who wants to go to the toilet, you may go now. the toilet is burning; especially the guys'
Me: *what? burning? er..okay whatever is she talking about*
L: girls, you can go siram the bunga (water the flower)
Me: *ahhhh! now i get it!*

p/s: you guys get the joke ka? i think most of the class didnt get the joke.. haha, they are not witty enough ba!

hint: the way the firemen put out fire is similar to how guys do their business :) that's why the washroom is said to be burning.

Scene 3:
Me: ..... even S1 is very quiet this week
S2: oh, you mean the high spirited one? habis spirit already maybe.

i dont know if you people find the jokes funny, but they do help to not just put smile on my face, but also laughter. till next post then

p/s: please dont expect any photo for the next god knows how many post.. haha..limited time to go online ba!\

The 1st Month In Matrics The Unedible COW Experience

ahhh! it feels so damn good to own your own laptop, especially when you are away from home. nevermind the fact that i dont have internet connection is this sad (well, a little sad) place. at least i can express myself by blogging and thus avoid myself from going insane.

today i went to the cafe to get myself some dinner, which i'm currently eating. when i first saw this particular meat i wonder what is it, coz it does some how smells like lamb. so i asked the kakak at the cafe, and the kakak at the canteen say its COW. well, at least she knows 'cow'.. but the cow i'm eating, is not edible, which means i stopped eating it now. it's so darn tough i wonder how on earth do they *** actually swallow that thing down their throat? hah! so much so for expecting a good dinner, wasting my RM 1.50 only!

***i think u guys know what i mean.

anyway, this is the 4th week i'm here, and you can consider it the 2nd month i'm here, in KML. which stands for Kolej Matrikulasi Labuan aka Labuan Matriculation College. well i'm assuming that you know why havent i be posting for the past about 1 month. obviously i was too busy preparing for matrics, and once i entered here, i'm totally cut out of the world. except the fact that i have a handphone, thank god!

so well, what have been happening for the past 3 weeks? 1st week we had orientation aka minggu pengurusan pelajar baru (mppb). it wasn't as bad as i expected. except the fact that we have to "compress" ourself in order to fit in the 2.2k students plus god knows how many facililators into the suffocating hall. the hall was an earthly hell and oven to us, the aircond didnt help much in anyway. i had to go against my principle of 'dont shower late at night' coz it is just pointless to shower if you were going to sweat like dog in the hall. i ended up showering at 11pm every night. my mum would kill me if she knows that! and we have to wake up at 4 am, rush, run, shoove food down our throat and our stomach, forget about shower and sit for hours and hours until our ass gone flat for 5 continuous days. by the end of it, we were like dead log and really looking forward for the outing day on saturday and sunday. enough said about the orientation week, at least it wasnt as bad as i expected. here's the link to the college blog on mppb, you should check it out.. really interesting.. well, at least the photography was great. http://www.kml.matrik.edu.my/mppb-2009/

the first week of lecture and tutorial, i must admit that i do experience a little culture shock here and there. i felt like i'm in oversea and in college!! yeah, indeed i am in college. it's kindda fun to watch people rush into the theatre-like lecture hall, grab their sit and listen for 1 hour. then rush to another tutorial room and to the next lecture and so on. and the fun is doubled when you actually experience it :)

that is during the day. and then at night, people going to the library, studying, full or high spirit and ethusiasm. there was even a LONG Q! i was totally speechless! i think the most powerful culture shock i experience here is due to the fact that everyone is studying, or at least pretend to. i must say it puts some pressure on me! i do enjoyed the 1st week of lecture and tutorial.

then second week came, and more tutorial work comes in. and lecture is going on a fast pace and biology is driving me nuts. god, this is only the 2nd week of lecture and i'm already struggling like this! tutorial work does gives me some headache, especially when i cant seem to just get it right, how frustrating! and alast! the friday came, and i was more than happy when the chemistry lab class was cancelled. and double the joy people, because i finally get to travel back to kk on friday!! well.. i must end this post here, because it's time for me to get back to work. so till tomorrow or the next post comes in, then i'll post about something more interesting.